I thought there was more to this

than a simple "one time" sort of thing

I thought there was something beautiful

a feeling of goodness

Yes, confusion is involved

as it always is when something somewhat new is sprouting

The changes have been made

I will never be the person you used to know 

My moods, my motives, have shifted

Away from control

Away from judgement

I am a positive beam of light now

I'm not saying that I'm not sad,

My heart is dizzy from spinning so much

going up and down in increments so fast,

I can hardly remember where it was last

But what touches me is just looking at your smile

Your touch,

the conversations,

The simple things

Those are the things I want.

The things I love.

Complicated immaturity

has been left in the dust

I would never go back to that.

But I see something, in the new,

the changes, they draw me in

If I could be with that smile

that touch,

those conversations

without barriers, quarrel, and immaturity

There would be nothing holding me back

Maybe it's not me that has held onto the past,

maybe it's not you either

I'm not sure what it is,

but I know that what I feel isn't just  a trip,

an opinion, a overexageration

What I feel is true

It is deep, new even

It's the feeling I've been waiting to feel

And I'm sure it has something to do with the changes I have felt growing within me

Out onto the surface, 

my changes noticing yours

Smiling at each other, even when trying to hold back

I won't stop smiling, not when I have the simple things

The simple things with you

Even if things aren't solid, or definite

The simple things don't have to be complicated

They aren't going to hold us back

I won't hold you back anymore

I will help push you forward,

while smiling at you by your side

or from afar

My smile is a result of you, 

your simple actions which show no fury

no tangles, no worries

I just don't want to lose yesterday

Simply yesterday with you,

I would be satisfied with that.