Forever guessing,

wondering why I'm sitting here waiting

Waiting for you to call,

for life to happen

for whatever it is that I need to find

To come into focus

Every thing's a blur.

I'm trapped in the dizziness

Of this selfish human life

I want people to feel loved

just by looking at me

I want to be able to make everyone smile

I don't want to be a cause of pain,

but a cause of change

for myself

and others

I want my blood to flow thick with hope

and happiness

An understanding of this world 

and how I want my world to be within the one I was forced to live on

Distance seems so inadequate,

so many faces I've never seen and will never see

So many stories I will never hear

Even if I do travel the world, I will still be missing billions of stories

of theories, of causes, and of love

I'm tired of feeling guilty to others and to myself

for living  on auto-pilot for so long

I'm going to experience things

and I'm not letting you go

I have a connection here on earth 

And I'm not willing to throw it away

Because of distance.