writing you letters

that i'll never send

you'll never see

the things i cannot say to you any longer

filling up pages and pages

i could write a book full of my feelings

but for now, i will keep them to myself

at least i'll try

for your sake

you need your time

your space

and it does hurt, but you mean enough to me

that i can try to help to remain silent

at least for now

so that we can start over

and that you can find your place in this world

but i hope you know 

that you will always have my feelings 

if you want them

whether they're hidden in a box

or filling up my notebooks

stacked high against my walls

or being created into a book, a work of art

my soul will always find you amazing and beautiful

no matter if we're together or not

there is no one in existence identical to you

i can say that without ever meeting more than 1% of the population

because there is no way there is another you

just like there is no way that there is anyone exactly like me out there

at least that's a bit of freedom, knowing that much

in this monotonous world

i hope you can find happiness and i hope that i can too

and whether it be as friends or more,

i hope that our happiness can always be connected